Current location:	Fisher House
Current mood:	moody
Entry tags:	canada, toronto, uni

Fly Away
I finally gave in to homesickness today. I really want to go back to Singapore, now. Yes Canada's been good to me. There's no reason to dislike it, actually. But I still want Singapore. I knew this would happen sooner or later, but I've been trying to avoid it. Seems that I can't anymore.

I want so bad to hug my mother. I want my bed in my room. I want to see all those people I know back in Singapore. I want to talk to my brother on MSN when he's two metres away from me, not fifteen thousand kilometres away. I want to stick my head out of my study window and see another lousy Singaporean sunset, even though I know they will never compare to the ones here. I even want to feel the hot sticky afternoon, because that means I'm back.


Fly Away

"When will you be home?" she asks
As we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as I crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
And yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

-"Fly Away" by Corrinne May

I'm pretty sure my mum cried when she left me in Toronto. I did too, but she didn't see. I think I understand. And the song lyrics put into words exactly what happened, probably way better than I can while I'm in this rather messed up state.